Singin' of buttercups and daisies

Well, I think I am going to make a new live journal. I am never satisfied with my screen names! Ever! :(

Plus... Whenever I go a long time without posting, I always feel like I should make a new one to start fresh and new. I have new things going on, things are going well, I am happier, less angsty, which means I have more to talk about! Which is why... I am now little_turnip

I hate ads, but this one especially made me foam at the mouth.

( the ad )

Oh, yes! I'd love to try this diet so that I can shut myself in a closet like Karen Carpenter! Then I'd be skinny! Skinny and dead!

Once again, I hate, HATE HAAATE this country... And the majority of people in general.

I mean, if you want to advertise your crap on the interwebs, at least get a good artist, or have good judgment about what looks right and what looks COMPLETELY wrong. OR you could go on that recommended diet, and go to sleep forever! :)

On a happier note, I absolutely LOVE The Carpenters.

Most of you know that I have my ears pierced now. I am very, very, very proud of this and I see it as an accomplishment. I have been weened from my studs now and am able to wear any sort of earring including the swoop earrings! I have been wearing my bamboo kitty earrings here and there, but they have irritated my ears since they are heavy. I have been wearing studs since then, and have waited longer to try the swoop earrings! Today I tried it once more. But instead of using my sweet little bamboo kitty earrings, I am wearing a different sort of kitty earring...

The earless, tailess kitty. :P




I have a japanese manga of this little guy, and I don't know his name. I used to know, but I always forget. D: It starts with a D I think.



Also, while I am showing off my knick knacks, I am going to show off my sweet little japanese children's book. It's super cute. I wish I knew the title of it. The book is about animals that wet their beds. =)





But yeah, I'm wearing really heavy earrings and I feel GREAT!

Warning: Bizarre.




I will make it short.

My mother, father, sister, a bunch of other folks, and myself were at some sort of rally where mccain supporters and obama supporters had gathered to listen to the last speeches before the new president was announced.

This place is a huge arena.. I mean HUGE. It was like a football arena, except the bottom of it was full of water, and McCain and Obama were standing on the bottoms of the bleachers facing us all.

Obama was getting the crowd all riled up, people were clapping in unison, it was like a party. Suddenly, Obama's two children, a girl and boy, around 3 or 4 years old come running down the stairs towards Obama, happily. This was planned, to make the crowd do the whole "awwwww" thing.

For some reason though, I sensed disaster at seeing this. Disaster and for some reason GREAT compassion for McCain. When I started feeling this, I noticed Obama's son start tripping up over his own feet, and began toppling down the stairs. He collided with his sister, and they both began falling, and falling. It was terrible seeing these two kids hitting their heads on the bleachers, ricochetting off of the ground and plummeting into the water below. The crowd let out a loud "GASP" as Obama plunged into the water after his children who were floating on their stomachs in the water.

You know how at football games the crowd grows silent when a player is injured? Then they clap when he walks off the field seeing that he'll be okay? Well this is what happened. Except there was no clapping.

Everything was dead silent.

Obama emerges from the water carrying two lifeless children and places them on the ground. He kneels next to them, stone cold silent.

It was dead silent.

Things are foggy around here, but this is basically what happens next.

The children are taken away, and the water disappears. The crowd is now listening to the most amazing speech I have ever heard in my life. This speech is about death and recovery, and it is being given by no other but John McCain. He is so sincere and honest, and tears are swelling up in the corners of his eyes. The crowd is shocked at his show of honesty and his speech. I can't remember any of it, but I remember it being simply beautiful, like dalai lama stuff.

After his speech, Obama announces reluctantly between chokes that he was giving up, and with that he leaves the stadium.

Then a funeral is held for the two children in the bottom of the stadium, on the grass.

This is where it gets REAL weird.

The funeral is like a display of children's rooms. The two kids are in seperate beds. The furniture is ancient, and the rooms are lit up with dim oil lamps. When my family and I approach the displays and mourn, I immediately notice something too familiar in the arms of the children.

My stuffed animals. Froggy, Lion, Claire, every one of them. They are all set up in the display. I am terrified. I feel terrified, and I feel a huge amount of compassion for McCain, as he is watching everything. It's strange, but he sort of felt like a father to me in my dream.

What the hell?

Things that used to make me happy:

walks
clay
drawing
music

things i do to pass the time:

nap
stare at the computer

I am stuck in a complete rut and I need advice. I want to do things that I used to, but I can't seem to make myself do them. In all honesty, I can't do it. It's easier said than done too. I just can't get up and do it. I'm turning into a monster. I'm irritable, dependent, and unhappy. Things suck. >_<

I'm socially awkward. It's difficult.

I was just now scheduling an appointment with a Psychiatrist, so that I could get documentation that I have A.D.D.; if I have documentation, I can get special seating arrangement and more time when I take the ACT test! Anyways, the man on the phone began to describe where the office is, and I said, "Oh, yes! I'm familiar with main street. Isn't that the street with all of the bars and the circle cafe?" The man said, "It's the street with the trolley car tracks, and yes, I do believe there are several bars there." I was so embarrassed. I don't even drink or go to bars! I'm sure he thinks I am a very sad case. ._.

Oh well, I don't think it matters.

Today has been awesome. I just took the most amazing nap ever. I have a huge window in my room, and the sun is always shining in here as long as it is light outside. That's how well this window is placed. I slept for almost two hours! Deepest sleep ever. It took me a long time to wake up, but it wasn't a rushed waking up, so it was perfect. I crawled out of bed, stood up, laid back down again, snuggled under the covers, rolled out of the bed and crawled to my computer. Head+desk. Then I checked live journal.

Again, this has been an awesome day.

I woke up at 8:10, hit snooze till 8:20. Showered, and then ate a really yummy banana. I filled out my internet doctor papers and went to the doctor! I was late, naturally. I won't go into detail about the appointment (You are very welcome.), but everything was normal! I got a prescription for the Depo Provera shot, but I am still unsure about it. My doctor really sucked actually. She rushed the appointment, and didn't really elaborate on anything I asked her. I had a lot of questions about the shot's side effects, but I guess she decided that I could figure them out myself. I'd like to know if any of my lady LJ friends use Depo Provera, and what they think about it. It seems like the only problems are bone problems, and weight gain. I live a some-what healthy lifestyle, so I think this should be alright. I will just have to get more calcium in my system. I don't really eat dairy products, so this might be difficult. I think the shot will be worth it though. I am bed ridden once a month, thanks to my womanhood. Oh, well. Back to my good day.

After my appointment, me and mom went to IGIBON! It is the most amazing Japanese restaurant ever. I will hate to move from Little Rock, since I do love eating there. Their lunch menu is so cheap. I can't remember if I have written about it or not, but a meal for five bucks consists of: onion tempura, broccoli tempura, 2 sweet potato tempura, zucchini tempura, a bowl of miso soup, crab rangoon, california rolls, an orange slice, a big thing of rice... and the main dish. I get the gyoza bento which comes with 6 pieces and a dipping sauce. There is also a dipping sauce for the tempura. It's so awesome. Me and mom always have interesting discussion while here. We really cut up sometimes, with hysterical laughter. We had fun!

EDIT: I forgot about the salad! The bento comes with a delicious salad with really amazing dressing: ginger dressing!

We were stuffed, came home and were knocked out cold for about two hours. Like I said before, it was one of the best naps ever. I love sleeping off a good meal.

Oh yeah, I returned Justin's call at his work place when I got home. Mom said, "I have to go to the bathroom!" I said loudly, "Let me pee first!!!" Little did I know the receptionist lady had already answered the phone and said, "Food land plus, may I help you?" Mom cracked up when I said, "Ah- oh! Um... Umm.... Can I speak to Justin please?" I was embarrassed but that didn't stop me from laughing! ^_^

I love fall! It brings good happy feeling!

And to top off the good happy feeling, I'm about to graduate! Algebra II is getting more and more hard as I progress, but the more I progress, the more I feel inspired to do more work. After algebra II, I'll have half a credit of geometry, and then I am on my way home to AL!

Do you do weird things subconsciously while playing on your computer?



I have a bad object + nose problem, and I just now realized! I was happily playing on the computer and then realized what I was doing! I cannot stop laughing! ^.^;

So I decided to take a snapshot to document the event.

Then proceeded to clear my desk off.

(Yes mommy, I washed it! You can still use it! Hehehehee)

Mama: What if they fired those particles at each other... And it formed a tiny little universe in that facility?
Me: Whoa... What if WE are in a tiny little universe... In a facility... And someone is watching us?
Mama: STOOOPPPPP!!!! T_T *rubs her head*

Really though.

My anemia is getting worse. I keep forgetting to take my iron medicine, I'm sure that would fix it. I really want to exercise, but even doing mild exercises, even stretching, makes me feel clammy. I blacked out the last time I went to the gym, and honestly, I'm scared/embarrassed to go. I don't eat badly, in fact, I probably have a healthier diet than the average american. Problem is though, I don't eat much meat. Meat makes me feel sick. I think I need to start drinking iron protein shake drinks or something. I wish I could find the right exercise that will keep me from passing out, and eventually it will build up my strength and stamina so that I can move on to more strenuous things. I'm getting weaker and weaker every day it seems. My breathing is suffering too. I really suck.

I really want to start growing lots of different kinds of plants. Flowers, herbs, vegetables... I wish I had a yard. It would be full of colorful and tasty vegetation!



And I could make my own pretty time lapse videos. My uncle knows a whole lot about hydroponics, in fact I'm making a logo for his business. In trade, he bought me a little spot on the internet. I wish he would teach me about hydroponics though! That way I could grow a HUGE and even colorful hydrangea!

I made a little clay frog girl today. I made her out of white poly clay, baked her, and then painted her, and used a sculpey glaze. Unfortunately the glaze didn't get shiny like i have seen other glazes do on Deviantart. Any suggestions for what kind of glaze to use?



This camera really sucks. It can NEVER focus on small things. Though, you can see my peace lily plant very well! I need to repot it. I made another little clay critter but it's not done yet. I will post pictures when I finish. This little frog girl is going to be sitting on a lily pad, which will have a little indentation where you can stick your little incenses in. 

And if you were thinking, "Why did she put a little poop on her head!?" Well, it's not a poop, and I don't have a poop fetish. It's a curly lock of hair that is sticking out of the frog hood! >:/ *glares at mum*

I'm craving hot wings really bad right now. Some meaty, fiery, unbearable, hot and spicy ones. Mmmmmm, YES.

( More pictures of the frog girl! )

I feel so incredibly better about my self image now. My self esteem has been really low. It's amazing how just a small change in appearance can make you feel better. At least with me. I wish I could feel better without changing my outside, but It's just not the case. Maybe I will learn one day.



MRAER! :D

Still on vacation. Hey a computer! ...A meme!

Tagged by: oh_harley_quinn 

(A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

(B) Tag six people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

And I'm tagging..... manabu , sicilianhitlist , alfbenny , shadowstitch , 007zed , briannablade , love_potion9 , chocoincognito  (I added a few, cause I couldn't decide. You don't have to do this of course, it's pretty stupid. x_x)

1. What are your reasons for having an LJ?
Well, there isn't much of a reason really, but I guess mainly I like to share a little tiny portion of my thoughts, and life with others, and I like to read the thoughts and little bits of other people's lives. It's a great way to keep up with people you've known for a long time, but who have moved away! Also, if I ever need advice, or am feeling sad, my LJ friends have always been there for me. It's nice.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
talk on the phone to justin, most of the time. Relax, pr0n, listen to some nice music, take off my glasses, have the cough drops ready... I seldom wash my face or brush my teeth before bed. BAD! BAAD!

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
It's not THAT important to me, having a dream wedding, but I guess I do have one. It will be very relaxed, it will be in the country at my Aunt's house, strings of lanterns under the trees lit by flickering candles, flowers everywhere, pretty pastel dresses, not too many people. The best part about it though, will be the live folk music, and a POTLUCK!!!! My hair will be long and curly, and i'll have pretty make-up on, and a creamy pastel dress that hangs off of my shoulders, and a pearl necklace. *_* ....but honestly I don't care.

4. What is your dream job?
Doing something creative from home, and never having to leave the house!

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
I don't know. You tell me. D:

6. What age do you feel you are inside? (your mental/emotional age, not your physical age)
I feel like I am eight years old. I love dreaming about the future, I love being babied, playing games, playing with toys, I sleep with stuffed animals still, and I whine!

7. Do you trust easily?
Too easily, I'm told. But I'm getting better! Or more paranoid, rather.

8. Would you ever consider suicide as a way out?
NO! nonoonono! It's mean, selfish, and for wussies!!!

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yes, a friend of mine has been very unhappy, and of course conflict within my family is no fun. I'm trying to be there for them though!

10. What is your best quality?
I feel that I am a good listener.

11. Is doing this meme fun?
More-so than the majority I've tried. These aren't stupid questions at least. ^^

12. How do you see yourself?
It depends on my mood. I see myself as a pretty and kind girl, but sometimes I feel like I am selfish, self centered and annoying, fat, and ugly. I try hard to keep my chin up, and be proud. But it's really hard sometimes.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My mommy and Daddy, aunt candy, my brother and sister, and Justin. And my sydnay and gillian. But mainly mommy and Justin. :3 And daddy..

14. What kind of person do you think the person you stole this meme from is?
She is very sweet, and cute, and very, very zany!!!

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Blargh, that's a stupid question. If I HAD to I'd choose, single and rich. I wouldn't allow myself to marry if I was poor. That would be disastrous.

16. If you could only ever live in one place the rest of your life where would it be and why?
Pitlochry, Scotland. York, England. Or in a beautiful country cottage somewhere in Tennessee.

17. Who was your crush as a kid?
My first crush was sonic the hedgehog. No joke. Hehe.

18. What one book makes you happy every time you read it?
Probably Are You My Mother? Definitely the Beatrice Potter books though. :3

19. What would you do if you became a parent unexpectedly?
I'd be upset and angry with myself. My future plans and dreams would have to change dramatically. But things would work themselves out, and I would eventually be happy. I'd have to make it that way. I hate thinking about it. X_X

20. What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite sex?
I don't think they thought about it. But I really love the boy name Lebn, and if I were a boy that would be my name. :3

GONE!!!!


To Alabama. Later gators.

My current favorite band.

You can check them out at their myspace. You can buy their stuff here and look out their pictures. They are really sexy, I love beards and hairy guys.



I could just listen to this all day. I like imagining myself lying in the grass, or in a hammock, with my eyes half closed letting my imagination run wild. I like Fleet Foxes, lot's. :)

In other news, I'm leaving town tomorrow (again) for 6 days! I don't want to leave, but I do want to see my family in Tennessee. I wish my Supercard DS one would arrive before tomorrow. I'm sure it's due after my vacation though.

I imagine in 2-3 weeks I should be getting my goodies from Dealextreme.com.

I ordered a cute DS phanny pack and the Supercard DS one. I can't waaaaaaaaaaaaaait!!!!

I really want to try replacing a DS's housing case one day. I imagine that's gotta be FUN. When I get a job and have some money to waste, I'm going to go to a pawn shop and buy a cheap DS and take it apart and put it back together with those clear case things. I know it would be fun. Kinda like when I put together my death scythe! But more critical... :)

After extensive research I'm pretty sure I have decided to get this:



I'm also thinking of getting this:



But my skills in the department of taking things apart and putting them back together are... Umm... Lacking.

[Yast] whispers: duel me
[Yast] whispers: if u win ill pay

I was minding my own business while traveling to the Crossroads for a quest. But this was very intriguing. Yast was level one, and I was sure he was a twink. Inget, my level 14 undead priest, with hardly any good gear at all was brave enough to take on this challenge.

To [Yast]: Pay how much? >:3
[Yast] whispers: 10g
To [Yast]: Bring it on! :)
To [Yast]: Where are you?
[Yast] whispers: right in front of org

So I traveled alllll the way back to Org just to duel this guy. 10g would help me out a lot since this is a fresh server for me. So I got there, and checked his gear. Yep. He was a twink. Had some of the best enchants in the game.

To [Yast]: Oh wow, this will be interesting! XD

Duel starting: 3
Duel starting: 2
Duel starting: 1

...After a long time of me bubbling, healing, and using my wand, he just couldn't seem to get me down, and my mana was still in tip top shape. I saw where this was going and I was sure he was frustrated. I was loving it. In the meantime I was getting some really nasty messages.

[Zeers] whispers: You suck balls.
[Zeers] whispers: YOU SUCK BAD.

Inget has defeated Yast in a duel

Yep, I suck so bad that I beat a twink 13 levels below me. Wooooooow. >_>;

[Inget]  says: That was fun. :)
[Yast] says: ... all u did was bubble and heal..lol
[Yast] says: however thats fun?
[Inget] says: It worked didn't it? ^^;
[Yast] says: after 19 mins?
[Inget] says: What should have I done?
[Yast] says: used more than 2 spells?

I was eating this up. XD

[Inget] says: What's wrong with taking my time? And not wasting mana? :P
[Yast] says: against another lvl 14 u would get fucked up that way
[Inget] says: But you are a twinked level 1. Big difference. :)

A while later I PM'd him.

To [Yast]: Are you going to reward me that 10g?
[Yast] whispers: no ur lvl 10 plus..my macro doesnt award lvl 10 plus. Paying 5g to anybody below lvl 10 that can beat me in a duel right outside org
To [Yast]: If I remember correctly, you told me "duel me if u win ill pay" was that not the deal? That was pretty straight forward really. How could you forget that? I'm not stupid.

And he logged off! I can't believe how serious people are about this stuff. Heeeehehehehe.